Carl Jung first coined "Shadow Self" as a term for everything we can't see about ourselves. It is the "dark side" of our personality because it consists chiefly of primitive, negative human emotions and impulses like rage, envy, greed, selfishness, desire, and the striving for power. The past several weeks, I've been on a mission to do some personal shadow work. My progress is being slowed by subconscious emotional blocks and I need to discover what they are in order to blast them out of my way. So I sat down with my journal, cleared my head, and went into meditation with the intention of finding out what's holding me back.
The following journal entry is what came from sitting quietly with myself and just listening to Divine Guidance: "Understanding others comes from understanding oneself first. If we can have empathy for others then we can have empathy for ourselves. Be kind to yourself. Be gentle with yourself. For love comes through us, not from within us. When we reject love of ourself, we are rejecting God. There is no shadow side. We are all pure and divine love and light. What you see is just a reflection. What you see is smoke in the mirror. A visual trick. The mind creates these scenarios to hold you in fear. Break the mirror and focus only on the beautiful light within you." This isn't to discredit Carl Jung. What I think spirit is saying here is that there is a shadow, but only because we aren't fully connected to the Divine light within ourselves. If we can embrace that light, the illusion of the shadow goes away. Today, I am struggling with doubt, with the feeling that I don't deserve more. And beating myself up with head trash saying "How can I get others to listen to me if I don't listen to myself." Venerability is tough. Laying out your fears means you have to deal with them. I get it. But I'm SO tired of being held back, so facing those shadows is way less scary to me than living a life without purpose.